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I've decided to end this LJ for good now. Im going to be deleting it, so anyone who cares, add me on my new Sn: soda_is_bad KthxBisexul =D
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[17 Sep 2005|07:25pm] |
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Its scary how fast i've changed. I never believed anyone until now about change. I though myself immune to its dream-like state. I guess I was wrong. I don't update much anymore...I supose its because I've stopped doing alot of the old stuff I used to do. Hardly do I ever get onto a computer anymore. Hardly do I just sit and watch TV. I find myself doing the most random things. Things I wouldnt think i'd ever be doing a year ago. Wishing...But not doing. Whats going to happen to me when all this..." Fun" has to come to a stop. I can't go on living so...happy and free forever can I? Do I -Have- to grow up? For now thats the question on my mind. Theres nothing wrong with being happy. Its what i've wanted for as long as I can remember. But now that im happy...what else? Is being happy going to cut it for me. Why do I feel so much regret for leaving alaska. Its not like I was EVER happy there. I've become addicted to buds. Thats about the only daily thing I have now that I wish never to change. And I dont care what anyone has to say about that. Because its purely fact bitches. Weed makes Me HAPPY =D
KthxBaiSexual =D
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| Dying |
[27 Jul 2005|02:19pm] |
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Im getting really board with this Journal o___o; I love it and all..And All the friends I have on here...SOooo anyone who wants to come and find me. My new Sn is = Kryp_Rastafari. Yeah I know. kryp name yeah.
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[17 Jul 2005|12:47am] |
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Mama, I killed a man. Put a gun aginist his head, pulled my trigger now hes dead. Good bye everybody. My time has come. Time to leave you all behind and face the truth. Mama, I don't wanna die. I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all.
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[03 Jul 2005|12:07pm] |
1. Think of the first word that comes to mind when you think of me.
2. Go to google image search and search for that word.
3. Reply to this post with one of the pictures on the first page of result and don't tell me the word.
4. Put this in your own blog so that I can do the same.
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| Ravernessnessness =D |
[03 Jul 2005|11:45am] |
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Rave at Stables, kinda gay, but I had fun. I was super stoned off my ass and the lights were trippy @___@; I met a lot of....lets just say interesting people there. ^___^;
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[30 Jun 2005|05:32pm] |
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Your Japanese Name Is... |
Haruko Ichijo
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Yeah Nigga !
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[22 Jun 2005|11:19am] |
hahahaha! Thats Funny
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| What it is ho |
[09 Jun 2005|11:39am] |
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Nobody Comments on my journal ;___; You fuckers
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| Tired of It All. |
[02 Jun 2005|10:30pm] |
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Don't you wish your boyfriend was hott like me |
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Im Tired on holding all this shit back. I have alot to vent about and no one really to vent to. Let me start by saying, My best friend murdered her sister husband. His family is out making threats to all of my family because Kira IS my family. My dad was so worried, then the cops came and told me I should " Leave the State" So I did. I came here...Where I am now. In Hawaii. To " Hide" I guess you can say. I really didn't want to leave alaska though. Soo anyways. I come here. Few days later, my mom calls, tells me " Please Dont hate me " Im like...I don't hate you? And then come to find out shes having a baby. -sigh- I don't know what to think about that. Then..I met this really cool guy named josh. Hes like honestly, the only person i've ever met, that I can be so open with. And hes really REALLY open with me. I think im falling in love with him. Which is bad because love fucking sucks gigantic ass. Sooo anyways. My dad calls me today, Hes all mad at me cause I keep wanting to switch my date, when I come back to alaska. But then he tells me he got laid off of Hawaiian Vacations, so there goes all his connections. AHHHHH. Mother fucker. Im so stressed right now ;___; I have no ciggeretts, which sucks cause im like...super high .___.;;; And thats fucking bullshit. AND WHAT THE FUCK MAN. Im here updating my journal right now while everyone's either at grad blast or H. Maile. I know Kaikas at H. Maile. I was suposed to go with him, but he had his truck, and we saw tim and the graduation so they went. I really didnt want to go anyways...Well I did. But at the same time I didnt. Anyways...I really should just go to sleep...cause Im gonna wish that I was at the party right now...Kden. Lateness.
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[01 Jun 2005|10:17am] |
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Things going on:
1. My Mom's having a baby..with another man.
2. My Best Friend was caught and is probably going to Prision for life.
3. My head fucking hurts like hell.
4. I need drugs.
5. And Patron.
And I want Josh...Where is that fucker .____.;
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| Weekend Update |
[31 May 2005|04:29pm] |
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Lying in the Jungle |
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So last weekend was pretty fucking crazy. I was so jag friday, fucking vodka. ( <33 Love me some Vanilla Smirnoff with Vanilla Coke <33) Anyways. Never would I have imagened that i'd be doing all the shit that i've been doing now. All the places I've been going. Its crazy. I went to this fuckin huge Rager in Kula and did some of the stupidist shit ever. Then the party moved to fuckin Twin Falls and we stayed there all of what seemed like 10 seconds before the cops got there and broke that up. Then everyone was like screaming out their windows " H Maile. H Maile" We went. No one was there. HAHAHA Kaika was so mad. But I was just crusing in the back with josh so I didnt even care where the hell we went. -Sigh- All in all it was a pretty okay weekend. But this weekend is gonna be fuckin hella bomb. Grad parties everywhere. And the main one is gonna be at the light house. I can't wait to bust out that bottle of Patron! OMG HEVEN -faints-
P.S. Maui Boys are fucking hott as fuck. ^____^;
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| Fucking A Man |
[27 May 2005|10:15am] |
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2 More people I know...2 More. Are  I am starting to get really fucking pissed.
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| Tanya Steves Bitches! |
[27 May 2005|09:41am] |
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Tanya Stevens bitch. Hell yes. Her concert is tonight and I am so going. O-Maya is gonna be there to. Don't know who the fuck they are, but they must be good cause their playing with her ^___^! Anyways...Im Still in Hawaii if Anyone haddent noticed. And I need to go shopping now so talk to you bitches later.
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[22 May 2005|07:50am] |
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4 Strings- Come Closer |
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Take the quiz: "What Alcoholic drink are you"
vodka
You like to party...but you dont know what your limit of drinking is.
You bitches know I don't post much quiz thingers so yeah. I LOVE VODKA MUTHA FUCKA >D!!! =D
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| Home Is Where I want To Be~ |
[21 May 2005|07:03pm] |
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Its not that I want to go home. its just that I feel like I have to go home. I know Im NOT going home but whatever. I guess I can handel it though. -sigh- Im so....frustrated its not even funny .____.; I need someone to vent to, though at the same time I don't know whats wrong with me. Whats wrong with everything. Is it wrong of me though, to think that my mother having another child with another man I don't really know , is wrong ? I mean, Honestly, my sister is only 5, what...almost 6, and she dosnt even see her all that often. Me...I ccan go weeks without seeing her. But i've gotten numb to her not being here anymore. And what about my sister? How is she going to feel when she finds out she has another brother or sister, whos going to be with my mom 24/7, when shes not. Im not even sure if Im making sense right now.
God X___x; Anyways. Lets just change the subject. Im fucking tired of being mad/sad/frustrated eveyrthing just sucks right now and I need to get out of this shitty state of mind. Drugs? Anyone? Huh? Huh? -sniff sniff- Huh?
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| What it is ho. |
[20 May 2005|07:48pm] |
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[And I - Ciara] |
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Olay homes =D How is everyone today? Im good. Not really, but isnt that what you all want to hear. Don't lie to me. I know how you bitches are. Flashing them fake ass smiles, while under your crooked mask you poke and prod at my open wounds. Don't you dare open that salt shaker bitch. Don't you think you've caused me ENOUGH pain? Im tired of your bullshit, So Im leaving you behind. Hooker.
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[15 May 2005|12:38pm] |
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"I feel your hands on me in the steaming water and pull you to me. I take your soft lip gently between my teeth, but not too gently, because I want you to know how searing the fire is that I feel for you. Could we have heated all this water, merely from the passion between us? You gasp and open your eyes, and I know you feel it, too. "
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